Throughout the day, I was excited. Not only because it had been a few months since Tony and I started our relationship and Thor was accepting of it all the way, but today was my birthday.
Usually, it had been only Thor and I (even in high school, it was only the two of us) but now there was someone new to join us.
I was even given a day off by my boss, who gave me some clear soup, mochi, and sake to take home. He told me it was a birthday gift.
I was also excited because…well…everything was just so great, and I’m turning 21 today, so that’s an added bonus.
So, now I’m home and I’m just bursting with excitement as I get ready for tonight.
Tony told me that I didn’t need to drive to the restaurant that he was taking us to. He just said that he’ll pick me up while Thor can drive in his car, seeing as he had wanted to work out earlier today. I just agreed and told him I would be ready when he came.
I left my training earlier than I usually did, because I wasn’t up for it today. I’ve gone into a sort of depression I guess you could call it, all because of….Loki. And that damn Tony Stark. In the past few months, he’s begun to come around our home more often, ever since he and my brother had officially became an “item” as he called them.
I hated it. I made sure to hide my true feelings and thoughts about the bastard from Loki. He was happy to think that I accepted him and his choice of a lover, but it was only for his happiness. Behind Loki’s back, Tony and I know perfectly clear about how we feel about each other and he shares the same feelings for me as I do for him. Especially when we silently fought all the time for Loki’s attention. He being the obnoxious victor most of the time, shoving it in my face and putting his hands all over Loki like some cheap prize.
I park my car into our driveway, finally home at last. I should really do something tonight, to help get my mind off of Tony and Loki. Their constant public display of affection for each other really put me off in the most worst of moods. That party tonight that Fandral had mentioned at training practice sounded like the perfect distraction right now.
I hear the front door open and automatically knew it was Thor. I hurried from my bedroom to downstairs so that I could greet him and tell him about the dinner tonight.
“Hello, big brother! How was training today? Oh, and I have something to tell you, too,” I said as I went up and hugged him as tight as I could.
I wrap one arm around him, but not really warming up to the hug. He looks excited about something, since he had just practically jumped on me. Whatever it was, I bet it was the infamous Tony Stark that had something to do with the glorious smile that Loki fashioned right now…
“Oh. Um, great, Loki. I have something to tell you too. It’s about tonight…” Now for some reason, I paused myself, because there was this small voice in the back of my head telling me that I had forgotten something, something…important. Oh well. “I’ll be out tonight. I’m going out to a party with my friends, so don’t wait up for me, cause I’ll probably turn in very late.”
With that said and done, I release my hold on Loki and walk off to my room, not noticing that my brother was still standing at the door, stiff and shell shocked.
Throughout the day, I was excited. Not only because it had been a few months since Tony and I started our relationship and Thor was accepting of it all the way, but today was my birthday.
Usually, it had been only Thor and I (even in high school, it was only the two of us) but now there was someone new to join us.
I was even given a day off by my boss, who gave me some clear soup, mochi, and sake to take home. He told me it was a birthday gift.
I was also excited because…well…everything was just so great, and I’m turning 21 today, so that’s an added bonus.
So, now I’m home and I’m just bursting with excitement as I get ready for tonight.
Tony told me that I didn’t need to drive to the restaurant that he was taking us to. He just said that he’ll pick me up while Thor can drive in his car, seeing as he had wanted to work out earlier today. I just agreed and told him I would be ready when he came.
I left my training earlier than I usually did, because I wasn’t up for it today. I’ve gone into a sort of depression I guess you could call it, all because of….Loki. And that damn Tony Stark. In the past few months, he’s begun to come around our home more often, ever since he and my brother had officially became an “item” as he called them.
I hated it. I made sure to hide my true feelings and thoughts about the bastard from Loki. He was happy to think that I accepted him and his choice of a lover, but it was only for his happiness. Behind Loki’s back, Tony and I know perfectly clear about how we feel about each other and he shares the same feelings for me as I do for him. Especially when we silently fought all the time for Loki’s attention. He being the obnoxious victor most of the time, shoving it in my face and putting his hands all over Loki like some cheap prize.
I park my car into our driveway, finally home at last. I should really do something tonight, to help get my mind off of Tony and Loki. Their constant public display of affection for each other really put me off in the most worst of moods. That party tonight that Fandral had mentioned at training practice sounded like the perfect distraction right now.
I set the tray down on my night stand. He’s still outside my door, yelling for me to talk to him. Doesn’t he notice that I’m in turmoil right now and if he did, did he take pleasure at seeing it? Stubborn little brother.
I swing the door open, not meaning to glare but it was all the strength I could muster up to look at him. “What is there to talk about? You made it perfectly clear, you found a lover. We do not need to discuss it any further.”
I’m shutting the door again but it is stopped when Loki slams his forearm and fist against it to hold it back, getting my full attention.
“I know this, yes, but there’s something wrong with you and you won’t tell me! Aren’t you the one who keeps saying we’re brothers?! I just want to help!” I yell as I force all of my strength on the door.
He’s stronger than me, I know this, but if I don’t do something drastic, he won’t talk to me or tell me what the matter is.
Instinctively, I push my arm through the crack of the door and start clawing at his forearm to make him stop pushing on the door.
I jump back when he digs his nails into my arm, rubbing to soothe the pain and pout when he steps into my room and closes the door. Stupid Loki and his stupid kitty cat claws.
“Fine. You’ve trapped me, Loki. Now say what you have to say…and leave.” I collapse on my bed, glaring up at the ceiling, and grab a strip of meat off my plate and start chewing it as I wait for him to talk.
“Thor…Thor, you’re my big brother. You’re the one that keeps telling me that I shouldn’t take care of you and stuff, but we’re brothers, that’s what we do for each other. You’ve been there for me when I’ve been down, and now it’s my turn to do the same. Please just tell me what’s the problem? You act like you’ve been handed your death sentence or something! Is it Tony? I swear, he loves me, you don’t have to worry. I’ll still be here, okay?” I say desperately.
I was just saying anything off the top of my head just to make Thor talk to me.
“…It’s not Tony, it’s just…never mind…I just feel like, with him around, you don’t need to come to me anymore for comfort…for support…that you’ll leave me all too soon.” I turn over, facing my back to him because I didn’t want him to see my blush of embarrassment.
“It’s me being selfish….still living in the past when we were kids…when we didn’t care about anything but each other.” -But now you’ve found someone else to hold you when you’er angry or crying. Someone else to whisper love and encouragement to you late at night. Someone else to take away your love for me…-
I became quiet.
Thor…
I silently walked to him, sitting next to him and putting my arms around him.
“I’ll never leave you, I’ll never forget you. Just because I have Tony doesn’t mean that I don’t love you any less, nor would I not want you around and such. I love you so much…you mean the world to me, Thor,” I say, then pull his face down for a kiss on the cheek, like we did when we were kids.
My heart is pounding and he’s so close. I turn onto my back again, staring up at him. He smiling that smile I love so much, making him look so much younger, like his old self. I couldn’t help putting hand around the back of his neck, pulling him closer.
It could happen so quickly, if I chose to do it. Kiss him, grab him and pull him into this bed with me…all too easy. I gaze into his shining eyes before kissing him near the edge of his mouth, then wrapped my arms around his shoulders.
“Promise it. That you’ll never forget me and say you’ll always rely on me Loki…my brother.” I whisper into his ear.
I set the tray down on my night stand. He’s still outside my door, yelling for me to talk to him. Doesn’t he notice that I’m in turmoil right now and if he did, did he take pleasure at seeing it? Stubborn little brother.
I swing the door open, not meaning to glare but it was all the strength I could muster up to look at him. “What is there to talk about? You made it perfectly clear, you found a lover. We do not need to discuss it any further.”
I’m shutting the door again but it is stopped when Loki slams his forearm and fist against it to hold it back, getting my full attention.
“I know this, yes, but there’s something wrong with you and you won’t tell me! Aren’t you the one who keeps saying we’re brothers?! I just want to help!” I yell as I force all of my strength on the door.
He’s stronger than me, I know this, but if I don’t do something drastic, he won’t talk to me or tell me what the matter is.
Instinctively, I push my arm through the crack of the door and start clawing at his forearm to make him stop pushing on the door.
I jump back when he digs his nails into my arm, rubbing to soothe the pain and pout when he steps into my room and closes the door. Stupid Loki and his stupid kitty cat claws.
“Fine. You’ve trapped me, Loki. Now say what you have to say…and leave.” I collapse on my bed, glaring up at the ceiling, and grab a strip of meat off my plate and start chewing it as I wait for him to talk.
“Thor…Thor, you’re my big brother. You’re the one that keeps telling me that I shouldn’t take care of you and stuff, but we’re brothers, that’s what we do for each other. You’ve been there for me when I’ve been down, and now it’s my turn to do the same. Please just tell me what’s the problem? You act like you’ve been handed your death sentence or something! Is it Tony? I swear, he loves me, you don’t have to worry. I’ll still be here, okay?” I say desperately.
I was just saying anything off the top of my head just to make Thor talk to me.
“…It’s not Tony, it’s just…never mind…I just feel like, with him around, you don’t need to come to me anymore for comfort…for support…that you’ll leave me all too soon.” I turn over, facing my back to him because I didn’t want him to see my blush of embarrassment.
“It’s me being selfish….still living in the past when we were kids…when we didn’t care about anything but each other.” -But now you’ve found someone else to hold you when you’er angry or crying. Someone else to whisper love and encouragement to you late at night. Someone else to take away your love for me…-
I set the tray down on my night stand. He’s still outside my door, yelling for me to talk to him. Doesn’t he notice that I’m in turmoil right now and if he did, did he take pleasure at seeing it? Stubborn little brother.
I swing the door open, not meaning to glare but it was all the strength I could muster up to look at him. “What is there to talk about? You made it perfectly clear, you found a lover. We do not need to discuss it any further.”
I’m shutting the door again but it is stopped when Loki slams his forearm and fist against it to hold it back, getting my full attention.
“I know this, yes, but there’s something wrong with you and you won’t tell me! Aren’t you the one who keeps saying we’re brothers?! I just want to help!” I yell as I force all of my strength on the door.
He’s stronger than me, I know this, but if I don’t do something drastic, he won’t talk to me or tell me what the matter is.
Instinctively, I push my arm through the crack of the door and start clawing at his forearm to make him stop pushing on the door.
I jump back when he digs his nails into my arm, rubbing to soothe the pain and pout when he steps into my room and closes the door. Stupid Loki and his stupid kitty cat claws.
“Fine. You’ve trapped me, Loki. Now say what you have to say…and leave.” I collapse on my bed, glaring up at the ceiling, and grab a strip of meat off my plate and start chewing it as I wait for him to talk.
“So, your the old pervert that Loki was forced to go on that date with, who stole his phone, and caused him to have to WALK all the way back here from where ever you took him that night. And now he’s telling me that you’re boyfriends now? Did you force him into that to?” I stand tall, flexing my muscles, glaring straight into the short man’s dark eyes.
I feel Loki’s cool hands on my arm and I hear him telling me to stop. Why? Why when this man has caused him nothing but trouble for him so far, why is he protecting him?
“Look, I know I seem like the bad guy here, but I apologize for my actions-“
“Thor, I ran away from him because I thought he didn’t like me for who I was, alright? He also took my phone away from me so I could enjoy myself…which…I sort of did…and last night…well…”
I then wandered away from the subject, hoping Thor and Tony would stop. “I’m happy, alright? That’s it. No one forced me into anything and Tony and I love each other.”
Love each other…
I feel my vanes run cold, when those words leave his mouth. My muscles go limp, and I turn around to meet Loki’s eyes.
“You love him?”
“Yes, we do Thor.”
I felt Tony come behind me and wrap his arms protectively around me.
“If you’re not okay with your brother being happy, then we can just leave.”
Tony placed a loving and gentle kiss on my forehead, giving me the soft, but hard look in his dark eyes, then went back to glaring at Thor.
“…No it’s fine. Just…just as long as you…you’re happy, Loki.” I look into his eyes and hope that he doesn’t see the tears forming in mine. I bow my head down and slowly walk past them, stopping beside Tony.
“Tony, protect him. Make him happy…love him. I’m sorry for my selfishness, it’s just…I expected to keep him as my baby brother for a while longer.” I walk out of the kitchen without looking back at Loki, going into my room. I lean heavily against my door, letting my held back tears fall. -Stupid, clumsy, big oaf. It was bound to happen sooner or later. It’s not like you could’ve kept him forever as your own.-
“So, my precious baby brother finally fell in love….with someone else. It’s great, no it’s fine, it’s great, it’s fine, it’s…I-I guess that means there won’t be anymore…close calls. Besides, it’s better this way…we would’ve been outcasted if we really did…”
I let my body sink to the floor, letting my head hang low and holding my hand against my mouth to hold back my sobs. And kept thinking to myself -It’s better this way. It’s better this way. It’s better….-
We watched as Thor left us in peace.
I felt so disappointed in myself…I wasn’t being a good brother to Thor…nor could I hold back the feeling of a broken heart in me. Tony holds me close, placing a kiss on my lips.
“Now, how about that coffee and breakfast you promised me?”
“In due time, Tony,” I said, “But I have to make sure Thor’s okay…”
I held the tray full of Thor’s favorite breakfast foods and a glass of juice as I approached his door. I couldn’t hear much, which was saying something because he always has to make noise somehow. I gently knock on his door, hoping he was up.
“Thor, I brought up breakfast for you.”
I jump when I hear the knock on my door, hearing Loki’s voice on the other side of it. I stand, wiping away my tears as best as I can. I breath in slowly, calming myself before opening the door.
He standing there with a concerned smile and a tray of food.
“Oh, thank you Loki” I say, taking the tray quickly, “You better get back to Tony. Wouldn’t want to keep you away for long.” He looks as though he was going to say something, but I shut my door before he could and locking it. I couldn’t handle seeing him or talking to him right now. I just can’t….
I gasped a bit when Thor closed the door on me. I certainly didn’t expect that…
“Thor, please talk to me. I know this is all so sudden, but…I’m really sorry, okay? I’m sorry I didn’t tell you and I’m sorry for worrying you. Please talk to me,” I begged, standing outside his door.
I was determined to not leave until I talked to him.
I set the tray down on my night stand. He’s still outside my door, yelling for me to talk to him. Doesn’t he notice that I’m in turmoil right now and if he did, did he take pleasure at seeing it? Stubborn little brother.
I swing the door open, not meaning to glare but it was all the strength I could muster up to look at him. “What is there to talk about? You made it perfectly clear, you found a lover. We do not need to discuss it any further.”
I’m shutting the door again but it is stopped when Loki slams his forearm and fist against it to hold it back, getting my full attention.
“So, your the old pervert that Loki was forced to go on that date with, who stole his phone, and caused him to have to WALK all the way back here from where ever you took him that night. And now he’s telling me that you’re boyfriends now? Did you force him into that to?” I stand tall, flexing my muscles, glaring straight into the short man’s dark eyes.
I feel Loki’s cool hands on my arm and I hear him telling me to stop. Why? Why when this man has caused him nothing but trouble for him so far, why is he protecting him?
“Look, I know I seem like the bad guy here, but I apologize for my actions-“
“Thor, I ran away from him because I thought he didn’t like me for who I was, alright? He also took my phone away from me so I could enjoy myself…which…I sort of did…and last night…well…”
I then wandered away from the subject, hoping Thor and Tony would stop. “I’m happy, alright? That’s it. No one forced me into anything and Tony and I love each other.”
Love each other…
I feel my vanes run cold, when those words leave his mouth. My muscles go limp, and I turn around to meet Loki’s eyes.
“You love him?”
“Yes, we do Thor.”
I felt Tony come behind me and wrap his arms protectively around me.
“If you’re not okay with your brother being happy, then we can just leave.”
Tony placed a loving and gentle kiss on my forehead, giving me the soft, but hard look in his dark eyes, then went back to glaring at Thor.
“…No it’s fine. Just…just as long as you…you’re happy, Loki.” I look into his eyes and hope that he doesn’t see the tears forming in mine. I bow my head down and slowly walk past them, stopping beside Tony.
“Tony, protect him. Make him happy…love him. I’m sorry for my selfishness, it’s just…I expected to keep him as my baby brother for a while longer.” I walk out of the kitchen without looking back at Loki, going into my room. I lean heavily against my door, letting my held back tears fall. -Stupid, clumsy, big oaf. It was bound to happen sooner or later. It’s not like you could’ve kept him forever as your own.-
“So, my precious baby brother finally fell in love….with someone else. It’s great, no it’s fine, it’s great, it’s fine, it’s…I-I guess that means there won’t be anymore…close calls. Besides, it’s better this way…we would’ve been outcasted if we really did…”
I let my body sink to the floor, letting my head hang low and holding my hand against my mouth to hold back my sobs. And kept thinking to myself -It’s better this way. It’s better this way. It’s better….-
We watched as Thor left us in peace.
I felt so disappointed in myself…I wasn’t being a good brother to Thor…nor could I hold back the feeling of a broken heart in me. Tony holds me close, placing a kiss on my lips.
“Now, how about that coffee and breakfast you promised me?”
“In due time, Tony,” I said, “But I have to make sure Thor’s okay…”
I held the tray full of Thor’s favorite breakfast foods and a glass of juice as I approached his door. I couldn’t hear much, which was saying something because he always has to make noise somehow. I gently knock on his door, hoping he was up.
“Thor, I brought up breakfast for you.”
I jump when I hear the knock on my door, hearing Loki’s voice on the other side of it. I stand, wiping away my tears as best as I can. I breath in slowly, calming myself before opening the door.
He standing there with a concerned smile and a tray of food.
“Oh, thank you Loki” I say, taking the tray quickly, “You better get back to Tony. Wouldn’t want to keep you away for long.” He looks as though he was going to say something, but I shut my door before he could and locking it. I couldn’t handle seeing him or talking to him right now. I just can’t….
“So, your the old pervert that Loki was forced to go on that date with, who stole his phone, and caused him to have to WALK all the way back here from where ever you took him that night. And now he’s telling me that you’re boyfriends now? Did you force him into that to?” I stand tall, flexing my muscles, glaring straight into the short man’s dark eyes.
I feel Loki’s cool hands on my arm and I hear him telling me to stop. Why? Why when this man has caused him nothing but trouble for him so far, why is he protecting him?
“Look, I know I seem like the bad guy here, but I apologize for my actions-“
“Thor, I ran away from him because I thought he didn’t like me for who I was, alright? He also took my phone away from me so I could enjoy myself…which…I sort of did…and last night…well…”
I then wandered away from the subject, hoping Thor and Tony would stop. “I’m happy, alright? That’s it. No one forced me into anything and Tony and I love each other.”
Love each other…
I feel my vanes run cold, when those words leave his mouth. My muscles go limp, and I turn around to meet Loki’s eyes.
“You love him?”
“Yes, we do Thor.”
I felt Tony come behind me and wrap his arms protectively around me.
“If you’re not okay with your brother being happy, then we can just leave.”
Tony placed a loving and gentle kiss on my forehead, giving me the soft, but hard look in his dark eyes, then went back to glaring at Thor.
“…No it’s fine. Just…just as long as you…you’re happy, Loki.” I look into his eyes and hope that he doesn’t see the tears forming in mine. I bow my head down and slowly walk past them, stopping beside Tony.
“Tony, protect him. Make him happy…love him. I’m sorry for my selfishness, it’s just…I expected to keep him as my baby brother for a while longer.” I walk out of the kitchen without looking back at Loki, going into my room. I lean heavily against my door, letting my held back tears fall. -Stupid, clumsy, big oaf. It was bound to happen sooner or later. It’s not like you could’ve kept him forever as your own.-
“So, my precious baby brother finally fell in love….with someone else. It’s great, no it’s fine, it’s great, it’s fine, it’s…I-I guess that means there won’t be anymore…close calls. Besides, it’s better this way…we would’ve been outcasted if we really did…”
I let my body sink to the floor, letting my head hang low and holding my hand against my mouth to hold back my sobs. And kept thinking to myself -It’s better this way. It’s better this way. It’s better….-
“So, your the old pervert that Loki was forced to go on that date with, who stole his phone, and caused him to have to WALK all the way back here from where ever you took him that night. And now he’s telling me that you’re boyfriends now? Did you force him into that to?” I stand tall, flexing my muscles, glaring straight into the short man’s dark eyes.
I feel Loki’s cool hands on my arm and I hear him telling me to stop. Why? Why when this man has caused him nothing but trouble for him so far, why is he protecting him?
“Look, I know I seem like the bad guy here, but I apologize for my actions-“
“Thor, I ran away from him because I thought he didn’t like me for who I was, alright? He also took my phone away from me so I could enjoy myself…which…I sort of did…and last night…well…”
I then wandered away from the subject, hoping Thor and Tony would stop. “I’m happy, alright? That’s it. No one forced me into anything and Tony and I love each other.”
Love each other…
I feel my vanes run cold, when those words leave his mouth. My muscles go limp, and I turn around to meet Loki’s eyes.
“Where is he? Where is Loki? God I’m so worried about him. He just said he was going out but he never came back.” I’m pacing around the living room, having had woken up much earlier than I usually did.
I sent Amora home, after a good night of fucking. I knew it was good, but I just wasn’t that into it as she was last night. My mind was on Loki all night and even after, waiting up as late as possible to hear if he was coming in. But he never did then and I came to find out that he didn’t come back at all when I searched for him in his room this morning.
“And I can’t call him because the bastard doesn’t have his phone, all because he went on the stupid date with that dirty perverted old man! Oh god. What if that’s what he went to do last night?! What if he went looking for the old creep to get his phone back and got kidnapped?! OH FUCK!”
Just as I was starting to panic, I hear the door lock clicking opening. I turn and dash to the door to swing it open. It’s Loki! It has to be!
I unlocked the door, holding Tony’s hand.
“It would be rude for me not to invite you in and offer you some coffee,” I said shyly, “So…heh, do you accept my offer?”
“Sure.”
“Good. I’ll ma-“
The door swung open to reveal a very surprised and worried Thor. I stood there, with Tony, in awkward silence.
“G-Good morning, brother…”
My eyes are only on Loki as I spring forward to wrap my arms around him.
“Oh my god Loki! I was worried sick! You never came back last night and I was getting scared, thinking that you might’ve been kidnapped…Who are you?” I stare over Loki’s shoulder at this stranger who is currently grasping my brother’s hand very tightly. ”Hey let go of him you creep! Get the fuck out of here!”
I slap the man’s hand away, pulling Loki behind me into the house as I’m sizing up the shorter, older man.
I angrily huffed out a breath. “Thor, this is my…my…boyfriend, Tony.”
I pushed past him (which was difficult, with Thor’s height and size) and grabbed Tony’s hand once again.
“He’s not a creep and he didn’t kidnap me. I just spent the night at his house. Now, if you will excuse me, I need to make breakfast and coffee for us.”
Loki pushes past me with ‘Tony’ following behind. He and I both exchange looks, sneering at each other. I follow them into the kitchen but stand off to the side to observe this ‘Tony’ person. He’s short, very tan, with a douchey Elvis hair cut and a stupid Van Dyke beard. He looks rich, going by his expensive clothing and cologne smell.
What the hell is Loki doing with a guy like this? And saying he’s his BOYFRIEND? Really? I squint my eyes and feel my fists clench when Tony’s hand starts to travel a little too far down Loki’s back. Fucking bastard.
“So! How did you come about meeting…Tony?” I question, strolling up to them standing against the counter and I squeezed myself in between them. I nonchalantly push Tony to the side with my hip so that I could stand next to Loki. Haha, no more touching my baby brother, not while you’re in our home.
“Well…remember when I fainted at work? Tony was the customer who found me and called an ambulance…he’s also the one who paid my hospital bill,” I said.
“Yes, and we went on a date, your brother disappeared on me, which I was deeply sad about, but now we’re dating.”
I saw Tony sort of size up Thor and looking as if he was going to fight him.
“Gotta problem with that?”
“You two stop it,” I sighed angrily, “or else no food.”
“So, your the old pervert that Loki was forced to go on that date with, who stole his phone, and caused him to have to WALK all the way back here from where ever you took him that night. And now he’s telling me that you’re boyfriends now? Did you force him into that to?” I stand tall, flexing my muscles, glaring straight into the short man’s dark eyes.
I feel Loki’s cool hands on my arm and I hear him telling me to stop. Why? Why when this man has caused him nothing but trouble for him so far, why is he protecting him?